posted by Trudy
Anxiety.
I hate it! But boy has it had a grip on me lately. Even though the Word tells me to be anxious for nothing, sometimes I still am.
As we plan for the upcoming simulcast there are some factors we can control and then there are plenty that we have no control over.
The tech side of the simulcast is one of those quirky unknowns that intimidates me and causes some fear. It has nothing to do with the people running it but simply knowing I am at the mercy of whether or not the thing will actually work.
This year the simulcast will stream live into a record breaking number of churches (over 700) along with a few prisons and even some overseas locations. Wow! I can’t help but give Him some praise over that but as soon as my hands stop clapping I have a reoccurring nightmare that the stream is so overloaded it doesn’t work at our location and over 170 women who have paid their money and come to hear from God stare at me with angry eyebrows. Daunting!
Recently the Lord has been speaking to me about this fear. The "be anxious for nothing" verse keeps appearing in the zaniest places reminding me I have only one alternative...to transmute the twisting grip of anxiety into prayer and lay my requests down to Him. To trust that He can do anything. ANYTHING. Including handling the tech side even if it had to stream to a million places at once. After all, He authored technology long before the word hit our lips and planned to use it greatly for His glory. Oh how fun to see that come to fruition.
So that’s what I’ve been doing. Every time I have felt the leaning of intimidation and anxiety over this event I have been asking, seeking, knocking, but I can be such a weakling at times and I could sure use your help. I know I have not stood alone in this place of prayer - a mighty team of princess warriors have been bending their knees, fasting some meals and trodding the battlefields in preparation for this event- its just that I thought if I let you know about it that you might be willing to join the fight too. (Not just for the tech side but for ALL sides).
I am more convinced than ever that our most strategic work surrounding this simulcast is prayer.
You see on Saturday a myriad of women and girls will come into our worship center from all walks of life and with them they will bring innumerable needs that only the Holy Spirit will be able to meet.
My heart beat is that not one person will leave that place with out a touch from God. I know that sounds big, but I believe the Lord is asking us not to just ask for the mediocre here, but to believe him for what is beyond us and our abilities. To believe Him for marvelous, unexpected, unbelievable things that can only be credited to Him.
There will be women coming in from broken homes, with broken hearts, and broken relationships. Why wouldn’t He want to bind them up?
There will be women who are just plain ole tired...weary from the race, who need a cold water break.
There will be prisoners attending, who have never been behind bars, but have been held captive to sexual addictions, eating disorders, a destructive thought life, pride, adulterous relationships (or perhaps even entertaining one). Why wouldn’t He want to set them free?
There will be those attending who are just in the dark and can’t seem to find their way out, who long to step into the light.
There will be those there who carry the grief of heartache and loss who He longs to comfort, and those who are deep in despair ready for it to be replaced with the oil of gladness.
One of my favorite memory verses reminds me that the Lord earnestly waits, looking and longing to be gracious to us. In fact, He lifts Himself up (I always see the cross in my head when I get to that part) so that He may have mercy on us and show loving kindness to us. (Is. 30:18)
The truth is I am expecting the Holy Spirit to come and show that mercy and lovingkindness He longs to show and to touch every single life in some way. I know He will do that for everyone who will allow Him to. And though His working is not contingent on our prayers, the Word is clear that we should ask and trust Him for things exceedingly beyond what we can imagine.
So here’s my request.
Will you link arms with these other princess warriors (and maybe even a few princes) and fight this battle of prayer with us over the next few days right up to the end of Saturday? Even if you can’t be there your contribution to this most valuable work will not go unseen or unrewarded by the Lord.
I for one would be so encouraged to know you are standing with us in prayer.
Or kneeling....
Knowing you are beside me, I might even ask Him for the moon while I’m on my knees.
I know He could deliver!
And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. Romans 5:5
If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples. John 15:7-8
If you would like to come to the Simulcast but money is an issue please see me as I have free/scholarship tickets available.
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